Me in 40!

Just had this crazy thought about how I will look like when I reach the big 40! I don't know whether I will make it to that age or not, but the idea is just too juicy for me. That's 16 years from now. Wow! That's a long time to go, right? Many things seem uncertain these days; my job, my friendships, my relationships.... Hmm, I won't let this disappoint me.

Here are two scenarios:

First: I will grow older with a nice husband with gorgeous children and my career won't be so prosperous, but I will be happy or so I'd like to believe. I will travel all around the world with him, meet new people, try new stuff and take infinite number of photos. I will tell my kids about their mom used to be and allow them to as many exotic experiences as possible.

Second: I will grow older on my own and will keep on my activities and trials to create a business on my own. Who knows? I might become a top notch entrepreneur-ess after all. I guess I will be a bit frustrated that I ended up without a family of my own, but by then I will try looking for the bright side.

Two distinct scenarios and I refuse to think of other stories!

Hmm, I know for sure that when I'm 40 and re read that post, millions of things that have not crossed my mind right now will happen and shake my world and alter my fragile scenarios. 16 years ago, I lived in a total different place, had different old friends whom I hardly remember, had a baby crush on my hunky teenage neighbor and was surrounded by so many people whom I truly miss.

Now, I'm 24. Let's see what I have become to. I have dozens of "friends" but can only trust a few, surrounded by a handful of people for whom I pray everyday asking God not to make them leave, have a somewhat good job, go to the best places in town yet always feel that something or someone is missing....etc.

If you had asked that little 8- year old girl about how she would be when she is 24? She would have had a completely different scenario.

We only tend to write our own scenarios, but God has always some better plans for us.

If I want to be certain about anything, I would hope that I keep on dancing my way through life, have the guts to say what I think and believe in, keep on searching for happiness and success for when we reach them, we don't realize that we actually did, have that big loud laugh of mine and have the power to run away whenever I feel that I need to.

:)